Wow, what a changing journey life is.  I read back at some of these diary entries and don't recognise what I used to be.  I work full time as an agent for outdoor entertainers.  A job I love and I believe that it makes a difference to peoples world and environment.  Who isn't a little bit happier when they come across something that makes them laugh?  I *try* (read constantly battle!) to balance that with family and friends.  My little one isn't so little now - a wild, stubbon and often crazy boy who makes me laugh every day.  It's fun watching someone grow and explore and discover.  I wish I could spend more time with him but our situation has meant that it isn't possible.  Besides providing a stable roof over his head, food and days out is part of raising a child too.