Monday, March 12, 2007
new poem about the ifwhyhowso reason to write........by Patrick Jones
kinetic
( for ethan evan and elian.......)
whether i write a rallying cry or desolate lament
i take aim, inhale, say what is meant
a truthfired fallopian fed by fury
a metaphorical mission
an inkmind incision
that shall be my irrefutable jury
words must not just live on the pale page
but ask questions, push, speak enraged
in the speaking of, i am reaching out
sometimes a whisper, sometimes a flood
i cultivate the i, to form the we
a culture of question, an act of redemption
my wordfreedom from mind intervention
a kinetic fusion yearning to be free
in this time
a century of screams
do we write or ignite
the
paper
rhyme or crime
tolerance or violence
against - for
sing me a silence
in need of a voice
paint me a saviour
who dreams of the noose
next time,
let us pour poetry into the mouths of those who commence the killing
let all nations belong to the coalition of the willing
because poetry is just action made words
and i chant it through the wounds of this earth
i walk in the paths of heaney and aneurin
speak in tongues of celan and caedmon
i have hope in the only religion that asks nothing from me
the mountains
the sky
the stars
didn't need a maker
only forged themselves
in brown and green
and blue was the colour that allowed us to dream
now, it carries a red scream
but i still believe in the written word
the ancient stream of consciousness, my only resurrection
that sparkles through grey
the inside turned outward
i shall speak my private thoughts
and it shall be the universal conviction
the battle cry
the elegy before i die
the coughed blood of bitter verb
the crystalled clasp of once forgotten verse
the peace exists in the word
and the word exists to fight for peace
waiting, waiting to be released.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
A bit of time wasting pre-work (it is my birthday!)
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Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Memories of the weekend:
Birthday celebrations don't stop there - tea and cakes on Wednesday too...yummy yum yum
- The mothers endless search for a decent coffee
- Surprise parties with balloons and party poppers - hurrah!
- The whole room going quiet as I said rather loudly "threesomes"
- Glorious food
- Swimming in the jungle run river
- Walking in the morning sunshine
- Archery rocking my world - must join a club
- Wiii game play
- Homemade birthday cake - I heart lovely moist carrot cake (thank you Jessie!)
- Amazing presents - all I could want and so much more!
- Dancing to 'Tragedy' by Steps (with all the moves)
- Lunar eclipses
- Turtle and Josh winning at the casino
- Class A's in one villa, caperberries and olives in the next
- Cockney sing-a-longs in the last land train home
- Hearing tales of mud slides and drunken singing in the depths of the forest - and for once it wasn't me!
- Riding bikes and not using the brakes until the last minute
- Drinking naughty ferret
- Spa heaven
- Snuggling on the sofas in front of roaring flames
- Pancake house binging prior to returning home
- Sleeping like a baby last night and having to turf myself out of bed this morning
Birthday celebrations don't stop there - tea and cakes on Wednesday too...yummy yum yum
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Lazing Posting...
I know that I've been doing lazy youtube posting recently but I'm crazy busy at work and have not been socialising much. Nothing overly fun to report. However, just about to go away for my 30th so expect rattie shenanigans update next week! I'm going to do archery, kayaking, spa and swimming - hurrah!
I know that I've been doing lazy youtube posting recently but I'm crazy busy at work and have not been socialising much. Nothing overly fun to report. However, just about to go away for my 30th so expect rattie shenanigans update next week! I'm going to do archery, kayaking, spa and swimming - hurrah!
Monday, February 26, 2007
Friday, February 16, 2007
Seeing Foxes
Fox Symbolism - Cunning, provider, intelligence, magic, diplomacy, wildness.
My father was a 'Foxall'. During the time before and as he was dying my mother and I both saw a number of dead foxes. The universe is funny sometimes - it needs to give you a good old kick up the arse for you to be able to 'get' things.
Then last night, after my first Working on the Body session I stopped to see a huge dog fox in a garden. He was yards from me and just looked; and looked; and looked; and looked at me. I think I can take that as a good sign.
Fox Symbolism - Cunning, provider, intelligence, magic, diplomacy, wildness.
My father was a 'Foxall'. During the time before and as he was dying my mother and I both saw a number of dead foxes. The universe is funny sometimes - it needs to give you a good old kick up the arse for you to be able to 'get' things.
Then last night, after my first Working on the Body session I stopped to see a huge dog fox in a garden. He was yards from me and just looked; and looked; and looked; and looked at me. I think I can take that as a good sign.
Thinking about Dad.
The other day when I read about Anita Roddick having Hep C; I cried all the way home. I'm sad for her and what she and her family will undoubtedly have to go through but I'm also happy that Hep C will now get the attention it deserves. It's estimated that some 200 million people around the world have it and yet in the UK there is only one organisation that is there to support people suffering and their familes. If you do think about giving to charity please, please think about giving to Hepatitis C Trust
Even if you can't donate please sign their petition here to the Prime Minister to accept that the current public hepatitis C awareness campaign is not working and that the rate of diagnosis is nowhere near enough to prevent thousands of avoidable deaths.
The other day when I read about Anita Roddick having Hep C; I cried all the way home. I'm sad for her and what she and her family will undoubtedly have to go through but I'm also happy that Hep C will now get the attention it deserves. It's estimated that some 200 million people around the world have it and yet in the UK there is only one organisation that is there to support people suffering and their familes. If you do think about giving to charity please, please think about giving to Hepatitis C Trust
Even if you can't donate please sign their petition here to the Prime Minister to accept that the current public hepatitis C awareness campaign is not working and that the rate of diagnosis is nowhere near enough to prevent thousands of avoidable deaths.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Friday, February 09, 2007
Depression - a light at the end of the tunnel?
The seemingly endless depression that comes with cloudy and cold winter months is slowly but surely being abated by:
The seemingly endless depression that comes with cloudy and cold winter months is slowly but surely being abated by:
- Becoming the proud owner of tickets to all 3 London dates of Manic Street Preachers tour in May. OH...MY...GOD...who was I kidding when I said that they don't really matter to me anymore, I am so not over them at all...I almost cried for joy this morning when all my bookings went through.
- Beginning working of the body weekly sessions to address my fraught relationship with food.
- Losing 10lbs in 4 weeks on the Slimming World diet.
- Being joined in London by the lovely Julie (hurrah!) and starting walking evenings instead of joining a gym.
- Looking forward to Centreparcs in the first weekend of March (note to self: buy a new swimming costume).
- Actually looking forward to becoming 30...
- Crafting it up to max - you should see my new plastic bag holder and lavender bags!
- EBay craft shopping - leftover Cath Kidston fabric for me to play with? Yes please!
- EBay spends on CD's that I've denied myself for months.
- Making lovely dinners for friends
- Making, baking and creating in the kitchen - I've made some lovely spicy tom sauces that I'm very proud of.
- Planning the rest of my life with a wonderful young man that makes me extremely happy indeedy.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Monday, January 22, 2007
Improved Mood Boo...
Honestly, there's nothing like:
p.s. I was woken up the following day by being sniffed and told "ha ha, you is sweating whiskey!"
Honestly, there's nothing like:
- eating crap Chinese
- seeing sexy ballet
- drinking whiskey straight from the bottle on a tube train with your mates
- being refused entry for the nightclub we were going to
- jumping the q at a different nightclub and still having to wait 30 mins to get in
- catching up with the ratties and West Country boys
- dancing to early 90's/00's indie
- squeezing into a packed night bus
- falling into bed at 5.30am
p.s. I was woken up the following day by being sniffed and told "ha ha, you is sweating whiskey!"
Friday, January 19, 2007
Up and down.
Mostly a bad week (although lovely things have happened throughout too) - bloody busy what with the return of the boss and my desperate bid to clear my to do list so I'm free for the first couple of days to do his bidding! Depression has hit hard a few times - nothing in particular just 'the darkness'. One moment I want hibernation, a squirreling down into nothingness and then the next I'm drafting 3 page to do's about positive action and getting the creative juices flowing. What I'd really like is a equal, gentle balance rather than these extremes.
However...Lornie is in town and Hels is leaving for foreign grounds again so we're up for some good old fashioned rattie fun this weekend: food, visiting friends, food, Swan Lake and then off to HDIF dance floor fun.
Hip flasks at the ready ladies...
Mostly a bad week (although lovely things have happened throughout too) - bloody busy what with the return of the boss and my desperate bid to clear my to do list so I'm free for the first couple of days to do his bidding! Depression has hit hard a few times - nothing in particular just 'the darkness'. One moment I want hibernation, a squirreling down into nothingness and then the next I'm drafting 3 page to do's about positive action and getting the creative juices flowing. What I'd really like is a equal, gentle balance rather than these extremes.
However...Lornie is in town and Hels is leaving for foreign grounds again so we're up for some good old fashioned rattie fun this weekend: food, visiting friends, food, Swan Lake and then off to HDIF dance floor fun.
Hip flasks at the ready ladies...
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Twin Peaks and 5lbs
General aside: I lost 5lbs last week!
Due to Lucy's purchase from eBay of the TV show Twin Peaks in its entirety we have begun Twin Peaks nights at the Arther's. Rats descended after the babies had been put to sleep and after a general mates catch up we begin with episode 2 (the first season starts with episode 2 due to a pilot) and we remembered almost everything about the shows - we jumped when Bob appeared, I'm physically scared when wife beating Leo Johnson walks onto screen and swoon when Agent Dale Cooper states that he's served a good cherry pie and a "damn fine cup of coffee". I was transported back to 1991, being 14/5 years old and obsessed with this show. I used to sit next a girl in English class who seriously had the hots for 'Coop' and we discussed each episode in great detail following each showing. We shared a copy of The Secret Diary of Laura Palmer, which we also discussed in great detail. I remember at the time some people were saying how unbelievable the whole thing was but I think for teenage girls it totally rang true with everything we were going through at the time. Sex, drugs, despair and magick were constantly by my side and my good and evil side had a bloody battle every day*. Duality is part of how we grow into adulthood, how we make our choices, by exploring each side of ourselves we find the balance that we need to progress...good god, I love Twin Peaks.
*these things are still with me but to a lesser extent!
General aside: I lost 5lbs last week!
Due to Lucy's purchase from eBay of the TV show Twin Peaks in its entirety we have begun Twin Peaks nights at the Arther's. Rats descended after the babies had been put to sleep and after a general mates catch up we begin with episode 2 (the first season starts with episode 2 due to a pilot) and we remembered almost everything about the shows - we jumped when Bob appeared, I'm physically scared when wife beating Leo Johnson walks onto screen and swoon when Agent Dale Cooper states that he's served a good cherry pie and a "damn fine cup of coffee". I was transported back to 1991, being 14/5 years old and obsessed with this show. I used to sit next a girl in English class who seriously had the hots for 'Coop' and we discussed each episode in great detail following each showing. We shared a copy of The Secret Diary of Laura Palmer, which we also discussed in great detail. I remember at the time some people were saying how unbelievable the whole thing was but I think for teenage girls it totally rang true with everything we were going through at the time. Sex, drugs, despair and magick were constantly by my side and my good and evil side had a bloody battle every day*. Duality is part of how we grow into adulthood, how we make our choices, by exploring each side of ourselves we find the balance that we need to progress...good god, I love Twin Peaks.
*these things are still with me but to a lesser extent!
Friday, January 12, 2007
"When you cease to dream, you cease to live." - Malcolm Forbes
In an attempt to make changes my life I have:
Joined Slimming World (it seems to be the most sensible 'diet' I could find but I'm finding it difficult to rethink my eating...)
Started The Artists Way at Work again - I've done this 12 week process before but it was quite useful last time and I really do need to restart/relight my passion for my work again.
Actually taken my part time days off work and spent them catching up with Hels before she leaves for the foreign ground again and playing with Lucy and the kids at the Bow Ideas Store.
In an attempt to make changes my life I have:
Joined Slimming World (it seems to be the most sensible 'diet' I could find but I'm finding it difficult to rethink my eating...)
Started The Artists Way at Work again - I've done this 12 week process before but it was quite useful last time and I really do need to restart/relight my passion for my work again.
Actually taken my part time days off work and spent them catching up with Hels before she leaves for the foreign ground again and playing with Lucy and the kids at the Bow Ideas Store.
Friday, January 05, 2007
Magic Horse Brass*
I found a lovely horse brass in an office that was moving out of our building ages ago. I admired the brass with it's sun, moon and pentagram and put it into one of their boxes; not thinking anything about it since. Then yesterday, I discovered it twinkling in box of rubbish that was left next to our bins. The universe has gifted it to me - a good portend indeed.
*The original purpose was to bring good luck or to ward off the effects of the "evil eye". As superstition waned, they were used to show off the quality of horses.
I found a lovely horse brass in an office that was moving out of our building ages ago. I admired the brass with it's sun, moon and pentagram and put it into one of their boxes; not thinking anything about it since. Then yesterday, I discovered it twinkling in box of rubbish that was left next to our bins. The universe has gifted it to me - a good portend indeed.
*The original purpose was to bring good luck or to ward off the effects of the "evil eye". As superstition waned, they were used to show off the quality of horses.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Into 2007
Welcome to the new year...this is the year that I turn 30 and I intend to make changes in my life. Unhappiness has been a constant theme in my life and it is about time it came to an end. I will often feel like I'm failing but I must carry on. I will put obstacles in my way but I must find ways of crossing them.
Plans are afoot to move out of London, to sort out my "career", to get healthy, to reduce my debts (my student payments only covered the interest on the student loan this year!) and to learn to bloody well enjoy life.
Welcome to the new year...this is the year that I turn 30 and I intend to make changes in my life. Unhappiness has been a constant theme in my life and it is about time it came to an end. I will often feel like I'm failing but I must carry on. I will put obstacles in my way but I must find ways of crossing them.
Plans are afoot to move out of London, to sort out my "career", to get healthy, to reduce my debts (my student payments only covered the interest on the student loan this year!) and to learn to bloody well enjoy life.
Friday, December 22, 2006
The Year in Review – 2006
Stolen from absolutely everyone...
Post the first line from the first post of each month for this past year.
Jan
Lunchtime distractions from the general realms of despair that are surrounding me include typing random words into search engines and linking to the websites they suggest.
Feb
Centre Parcs highlight (and lowlights)
March
YAY, it's my birthday today (and I'm not finding it quite as hard as I though it might be).
April
I don't often remember my dreams, possibly due to the weird religious/horror dreams I had when I was younger.
May
Wonderful weekend inHastings
June
I'm am currently in prozac withdrawal as I went to my doctor as I felt that I was still getting side effects from the prozac, he however thought that I needed a higher dose.
July
So I didn't get to see Nicky Wire but after a day in the heatwave sunshine at Europride and then watching the football and eating ice creams and drinking beer, I could barely move from Carla's bed let alone pull myself together to go to a gig!
August
How much fun is this?
September
I can't even begin to put into words how much this man means to me - he has influenced all that I am, fed into my dreams, my cultural and symbolic understanding of the world, I classify and communicate my experiences via the Manic Street Preachers.
October
Listening to Radio 4 yesterday "everyone has a mortgages". Eh, NO, no we don't David, that's why you will never be Prime Minister if I have anything to do with it....
November
Work is busy at the moment.
December
Running away to Egypt for 2 weeks - hurrah!
Stolen from absolutely everyone...
Post the first line from the first post of each month for this past year.
Jan
Lunchtime distractions from the general realms of despair that are surrounding me include typing random words into search engines and linking to the websites they suggest.
Feb
Centre Parcs highlight (and lowlights)
March
YAY, it's my birthday today (and I'm not finding it quite as hard as I though it might be).
April
I don't often remember my dreams, possibly due to the weird religious/horror dreams I had when I was younger.
May
Wonderful weekend in
June
I'm am currently in prozac withdrawal as I went to my doctor as I felt that I was still getting side effects from the prozac, he however thought that I needed a higher dose.
July
So I didn't get to see Nicky Wire but after a day in the heatwave sunshine at Europride and then watching the football and eating ice creams and drinking beer, I could barely move from Carla's bed let alone pull myself together to go to a gig!
August
How much fun is this?
September
I can't even begin to put into words how much this man means to me - he has influenced all that I am, fed into my dreams, my cultural and symbolic understanding of the world, I classify and communicate my experiences via the Manic Street Preachers.
October
Listening to Radio 4 yesterday "everyone has a mortgages". Eh, NO, no we don't David, that's why you will never be Prime Minister if I have anything to do with it....
November
Work is busy at the moment.
December
Running away to Egypt for 2 weeks - hurrah!
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Off 'Up North'
I'm about to drive off to Stockton for a two day work meeting and then I have two days to play in Newcastle - normal service will resume on Monday!
Here I come stottie cakes, wind swept coastal walks, a little bit of Xmas shopping and drinking with my mates and brother - it's cold up there, you have to drink to stop freezing to death...or at least, that's what I'm sticking to.
For the first time in ages I feel like I'm gannin hyem (check out this website for a translatation)
p.s. many thanks to those that have commented on the entry below!
I'm about to drive off to Stockton for a two day work meeting and then I have two days to play in Newcastle - normal service will resume on Monday!
Here I come stottie cakes, wind swept coastal walks, a little bit of Xmas shopping and drinking with my mates and brother - it's cold up there, you have to drink to stop freezing to death...or at least, that's what I'm sticking to.
For the first time in ages I feel like I'm gannin hyem (check out this website for a translatation)
p.s. many thanks to those that have commented on the entry below!
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Happy Birthday Blog!
Today is my blogs' 4 year blog-sphere anniversary. It's been great fun - a place to let off steam, to link to things that my friends would like on the ether, a stop-off shop for mememes; it's been miserable when I have, manic when I have, happy when I have and now I think it's time for a bit of an overhaul but before I do I'd like to collect a few happy birthdays.
Please leave a comment below to say happy birthday to it with your name and location - that includes any lurkers too!
Today is my blogs' 4 year blog-sphere anniversary. It's been great fun - a place to let off steam, to link to things that my friends would like on the ether, a stop-off shop for mememes; it's been miserable when I have, manic when I have, happy when I have and now I think it's time for a bit of an overhaul but before I do I'd like to collect a few happy birthdays.
Please leave a comment below to say happy birthday to it with your name and location - that includes any lurkers too!
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Tarot - because work finishes in 5 mins and I'm wasting time!
You are The Wheel of Fortune
Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success
The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
The Weekend...
The weekend became a bit of a blow out. Saturday, boy and I rushed through recycling, charity shop drop offs and the market. Went up for a rushed pie, mash and pint at The Camel - which was lovely. I then to Tate Modern for a meeting with mother. Too busy, service in the members room was rubbish, I was too tired and ill...walked down the South Bank and came across the fireworks for Mayor's Festival. Went for ginger wine in National Theatre and home to collapse.
Saturday night was hard work - lack of sleep, vomiting, sweating - woke in the morning feeling even worse so I missed my Nana's birthday lunch. Slept through most of the day, was woken by the boy bearing the observer, lucozade and 10p crisps.
The week (so far)...
Generally knackered from the weekend illness.
Busy at work - the rush before going part-time in Dec and Jan.
Paul from N/cle was down in London last night so we met up for a drink with Owen, his boyf and flatmate too - it was lovely evening as I haven't really seen either of them for ages and we needed a catch up. So much has happened in the last few years...all that growing up we've been doing!
The weekend became a bit of a blow out. Saturday, boy and I rushed through recycling, charity shop drop offs and the market. Went up for a rushed pie, mash and pint at The Camel - which was lovely. I then to Tate Modern for a meeting with mother. Too busy, service in the members room was rubbish, I was too tired and ill...walked down the South Bank and came across the fireworks for Mayor's Festival. Went for ginger wine in National Theatre and home to collapse.
Saturday night was hard work - lack of sleep, vomiting, sweating - woke in the morning feeling even worse so I missed my Nana's birthday lunch. Slept through most of the day, was woken by the boy bearing the observer, lucozade and 10p crisps.
The week (so far)...
Generally knackered from the weekend illness.
Busy at work - the rush before going part-time in Dec and Jan.
Paul from N/cle was down in London last night so we met up for a drink with Owen, his boyf and flatmate too - it was lovely evening as I haven't really seen either of them for ages and we needed a catch up. So much has happened in the last few years...all that growing up we've been doing!
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Quagmires...
I dislike this time of year so much - sneezing, sore throats, coldsores, dark mornings, dark evenings, overheated travelling, trying to think of money saving pressies for people, knowing the diet isn't going to last the Xmas period, planning New Year celebrations, spending too much money on Starbucks gingerbread lattes "'cos it's nearly Xmas", writing obsessive to do lists full of things I'll never get around to, scared of drunk people after Xmas party drinking...I must, must, must improve my life (repeat to fade).
Blessings...
Eygpt holiday in 27 days.
Cheap Sanctury stuff at Deptford Market (spent £11 for around £35 worth of goodies!)
30th birthday planning for next March (saving for the deposit on Centreparc villas now!)
I dislike this time of year so much - sneezing, sore throats, coldsores, dark mornings, dark evenings, overheated travelling, trying to think of money saving pressies for people, knowing the diet isn't going to last the Xmas period, planning New Year celebrations, spending too much money on Starbucks gingerbread lattes "'cos it's nearly Xmas", writing obsessive to do lists full of things I'll never get around to, scared of drunk people after Xmas party drinking...I must, must, must improve my life (repeat to fade).
Blessings...
Eygpt holiday in 27 days.
Cheap Sanctury stuff at Deptford Market (spent £11 for around £35 worth of goodies!)
30th birthday planning for next March (saving for the deposit on Centreparc villas now!)
Monday, November 06, 2006
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Halloween...
I love Halloween. A time to remember our ancestors - I made remembrance cookies for today and stirred my spoon remembering all those people that have made me what I am and have moved on from this life. Halloween marks the ending of the cycle, and of its new beginning — hence it’s the official start of the New Year We celebrate new beginnings, remember and honour the past and think about what we will contribute to the future. I’ve decided to let go of a few things that are holding me back…they include (in no particular order)…laziness, useless friends who constantly let you down, depression, being sloth like, dirty chemical laden food. I’m taking responsibility for my own happiness, time to put myself first.
Monday, October 30, 2006
Nabbed from Pepper-a-loo
| Your Five Variable Love Profile |
 Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is high. It's your way or the highway when it comes to love. You like to be very involved in your sweetie's life. No question, you like to be the one calling the shots. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship. |
Friday, October 27, 2006
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Torchwood - Doctor Who spin off
The first two episodes played last night on BBC2. Fantastic. A grown up Doctor Who spin off set in Cardiff Bay with funny one-liners, sex obsessed aliens and odd characters. I really enjoyed it and am looking forward to more...ooohhh, looky looky at the flash site here, how much fun is that?
Ok, ok, I'm a nerd.
The first two episodes played last night on BBC2. Fantastic. A grown up Doctor Who spin off set in Cardiff Bay with funny one-liners, sex obsessed aliens and odd characters. I really enjoyed it and am looking forward to more...ooohhh, looky looky at the flash site here, how much fun is that?
Ok, ok, I'm a nerd.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Art Meme nabbed from the ether...
The first five people to respond to this post, will get some form of art, by me, for them. I make no guarantees about quality or type, but I will assure that I will give it good effort and that the art will be individual to you, so if you get a mixed CD or some sort of painting doodle, yours is the only one like it.
The only catch, of course; as with most memes, if you sign up, you have to put this in your own blog as well.
The first five people to respond to this post, will get some form of art, by me, for them. I make no guarantees about quality or type, but I will assure that I will give it good effort and that the art will be individual to you, so if you get a mixed CD or some sort of painting doodle, yours is the only one like it.
The only catch, of course; as with most memes, if you sign up, you have to put this in your own blog as well.
Monday, October 23, 2006
Gordon Brown
"We need a forensic, analytical, dour workaholic like Gordon to save us from this tyranny or, God help us, the king of smarm Alan Milburn will make another comeback. Gordon's a hyperrealist: he may seem prosaic, but his results are colossal. He separates his religion from his intellect. His economics are almost agnostic".
Diary, New Statesman
Nicky Wire
Monday 25th September 2006
"We need a forensic, analytical, dour workaholic like Gordon to save us from this tyranny or, God help us, the king of smarm Alan Milburn will make another comeback. Gordon's a hyperrealist: he may seem prosaic, but his results are colossal. He separates his religion from his intellect. His economics are almost agnostic".
Diary, New Statesman
Nicky Wire
Monday 25th September 2006
All Change Please...
Hels is off travelling (again!). Flying out of our lives with no real timetable of her return - she'll let us know moments before hand I'm sure. Leaving do was quite civilised for the rats - the term sodomized to hell was only mentioned a few times.
Lorna and Will are moving to Exeter today. Looking forward to visiting and catch up - haven't seen them for ages!
Julie may be moving to London in a week. She finds out today about the job she's gone for - fingers crossed.
Hels is off travelling (again!). Flying out of our lives with no real timetable of her return - she'll let us know moments before hand I'm sure. Leaving do was quite civilised for the rats - the term sodomized to hell was only mentioned a few times.
Lorna and Will are moving to Exeter today. Looking forward to visiting and catch up - haven't seen them for ages!
Julie may be moving to London in a week. She finds out today about the job she's gone for - fingers crossed.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Disclaimer:
A few people have mentioned to me recently that my blog has a bit of dark, miserablist edge.
Point One: I am a dark and miserable person at times and therefore my blog reflects that. I like things with a dark edge - depressing music, meaningful poetry, black humour, angsty song lyrics, miserable novels with horrible endings, scary art, odd performance artists, violent video games and being y'know generally deviant in oh so many ways. I also don't take it too seriously (I was always a bit of a rubbish goth because I thought it was funny...). I embrace my darkness but also my lightness.
Point Two: it's been a fucking awful year what with my dad dying. I have been truly depressed but I'm on the mend.
Point Three: I have a great boyfriend who I adore and who worships the ground I walk on but as he's requested some privacy on this site I don't write about him too often.
Point Four: My friends totally rock and although I have found connecting with people hard over this last year, and have discussed those feelings here, I have had some damn happy times with them and am planning to have a whole lot more in the future.
I hope that clears things up for those of you who are, or have been concerned. There are happy things in my life and I'm OK, really, I am...
A few people have mentioned to me recently that my blog has a bit of dark, miserablist edge.
Point One: I am a dark and miserable person at times and therefore my blog reflects that. I like things with a dark edge - depressing music, meaningful poetry, black humour, angsty song lyrics, miserable novels with horrible endings, scary art, odd performance artists, violent video games and being y'know generally deviant in oh so many ways. I also don't take it too seriously (I was always a bit of a rubbish goth because I thought it was funny...). I embrace my darkness but also my lightness.
Point Two: it's been a fucking awful year what with my dad dying. I have been truly depressed but I'm on the mend.
Point Three: I have a great boyfriend who I adore and who worships the ground I walk on but as he's requested some privacy on this site I don't write about him too often.
Point Four: My friends totally rock and although I have found connecting with people hard over this last year, and have discussed those feelings here, I have had some damn happy times with them and am planning to have a whole lot more in the future.
I hope that clears things up for those of you who are, or have been concerned. There are happy things in my life and I'm OK, really, I am...
Strange day in New Cross...
Today I have:
Separately
Eaten a cheese and jalapeno sandwich. Not made in sandwich shop but in pack from a newsagents. Weird. Seems made for me, the universe truly does work in mysterious ways.
Today I have:
Separately
Eaten a cheese and jalapeno sandwich. Not made in sandwich shop but in pack from a newsagents. Weird. Seems made for me, the universe truly does work in mysterious ways.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Seeing shows
On Saturday, I went to see 'Daredevas' by Akademi at the Purcell Rooms. Really enjoyable, a presentation of solos and duets inspired by Indian dance styles with a very British (or Finnish!) take. Enjoyable on many levels - noisy, beautiful, silent, fun, exciting, wonderful...
However, the night was topped off by a child who kept asking "what's she doing?" "why's she doing that?". Literally giving a voice to the audiences inner child!
Last night, I went to see 'Zarathustra Variations'by Compagnie Ariadone/Carlotta Ikeada at The Place - it was very strange but I'm still thinking about images from it this morning. Pretty intense parts where I felt really uncomfortable but other moments where I was laughing out loud. Butoh inspired and it made me want to search and find out more about the tradition.
On Saturday, I went to see 'Daredevas' by Akademi at the Purcell Rooms. Really enjoyable, a presentation of solos and duets inspired by Indian dance styles with a very British (or Finnish!) take. Enjoyable on many levels - noisy, beautiful, silent, fun, exciting, wonderful...
However, the night was topped off by a child who kept asking "what's she doing?" "why's she doing that?". Literally giving a voice to the audiences inner child!
Last night, I went to see 'Zarathustra Variations'by Compagnie Ariadone/Carlotta Ikeada at The Place - it was very strange but I'm still thinking about images from it this morning. Pretty intense parts where I felt really uncomfortable but other moments where I was laughing out loud. Butoh inspired and it made me want to search and find out more about the tradition.
Friday, October 06, 2006
Work, work, work (and very little play) makes Boo a monster...
Spent last night lying on the floor bemoaning life, eating crap and watching comedy (Mitchell and Webb is improving (getting more preposterous
Spent last night lying on the floor bemoaning life, eating crap and watching comedy (Mitchell and Webb is improving (getting more preposterous
Monday, October 02, 2006
David Cameron
Listening to Radio 4 yesterday "everyone has a mortgages". Eh, NO, no we don't David, that's why you will never be Prime Minister if I have anything to do with it....
Also, Webcameron...what the f**k?!? How terribly modern and cutting edge...and upsetting beyond belief.
Listening to Radio 4 yesterday "everyone has a mortgages". Eh, NO, no we don't David, that's why you will never be Prime Minister if I have anything to do with it....
Also, Webcameron...what the f**k?!? How terribly modern and cutting edge...and upsetting beyond belief.
Friday, September 29, 2006
Nicky Wire's debut album...I Killed the Zeigeist
The album is wonderful - ragged, post-punk, inspired, rage-filled, nihilistic, romantic and beautiful.
Sound a likes - The Jesus and Mary Chain, Lou Reed, John Cale and Tom Waits.
The album is wonderful - ragged, post-punk, inspired, rage-filled, nihilistic, romantic and beautiful.
"I killed the zeitgeist
Switched off all the lights
Glazed like aching snow
Or metaphors for love"
"We will walk together
We will never part
We'll tattoo ourselves
And each others hearts"
Switched off all the lights
Glazed like aching snow
Or metaphors for love"
"We will walk together
We will never part
We'll tattoo ourselves
And each others hearts"
Sound a likes - The Jesus and Mary Chain, Lou Reed, John Cale and Tom Waits.
'Significant' happenings from the last week:
- The abunance of car crash tv on the telly - I've seen so many 'real' people cry on tv this week (note to self: stop wasting your life on this shite).
- Richard Hammond walking and talking - bless the hamster.
- Smear tests - why oh why, do you ache for ages afterwards even if it doesn't hurt at the time.
- Bad weather = the resurgence of warm, lovely food. Noodle tom yum soups ahoy.
- Spending too much money on shows. Dance Umbrella line up rocks this year.
- The reopening of the Young Vic and the surrounding publicity campaign - very excited.
- Lots and lots of work...mainly accounts. The joy!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
So, Stephen Fry: The Secret Life of the Manic Depressive final installment yesterday evening depressed me. I have suffered from a number of depressive episodes in my life and have had an eating disorder from a young age (which, fingers crossed, I no longer allow myself to 'suffer' from) but this programme made me so angry. I'd love to be able to "let go" and let myself slip into my black moods but I can't. I don't have my fame/fortune or mummy and daddy to fall back on. I have to work, I have to keep myself afloat, I have to keep myself together enough to get to work.
That's not to say that I don't have my dark periods when I feel like I can't go on. There are period when just getting out of bed is an effort but I have to make that effort and bloody hell other people should too. The sheer self indulgence
Might have been those diet doctors that put me in the bad mood first though. Over-indulgence and under-activity were the flaws this week...made me want to eat chocolate and not exercise...oh, I do that already...
That's not to say that I don't have my dark periods when I feel like I can't go on. There are period when just getting out of bed is an effort but I have to make that effort and bloody hell other people should too. The sheer self indulgence
Might have been those diet doctors that put me in the bad mood first though. Over-indulgence and under-activity were the flaws this week...made me want to eat chocolate and not exercise...oh, I do that already...
Monday, September 25, 2006
"I'm more interested in the future of the Arctic circle than the future of the Arctic Monkeys"
Gordon Brown is wonderful*. I watched Panorama about him last night and it made me even more convinced that he should lead New Labour into the next election. I don't mind that he's a Scot who has a dark moods (hello, Winston Churchill! - for much of his life, Churchill battled with depression which he called his 'black dog') he will be a great leader.
*I've alway had a bit of a thing for Gordon Brown. Yes, I know it's wrong. He's my DYLF (dad you'd like to fuck), that sweeping hair thing he does sends shivers down my spine.
Gordon Brown is wonderful*. I watched Panorama about him last night and it made me even more convinced that he should lead New Labour into the next election. I don't mind that he's a Scot who has a dark moods (hello, Winston Churchill! - for much of his life, Churchill battled with depression which he called his 'black dog') he will be a great leader.
*I've alway had a bit of a thing for Gordon Brown. Yes, I know it's wrong. He's my DYLF (dad you'd like to fuck), that sweeping hair thing he does sends shivers down my spine.
At last...
I've been involved in planning a surprise party and it's finally happened so I can now write freely about it - it's been so difficult keeping it quiet! Jane, Helen and I organised a surprise wedding party for Jess and Turtle. They thought that they only had a family meal to deal with on Saturday night but when they came through to the gallery at St Martin's they found they had a whole lot more! All the hard work was worth the look on their faces when they came in.
Edited highlight (and lowlights)
DJ Nonce throwing out some love classics
Drunken/drugged mates dancing to the love classics
Too much fizz
Seeing all those family and friends mixing and chatting
Jessie's sister in law coming to London even though she's about to give birth at any moment (and looking positively blooming of course!)
Proud parents
Wonderful, supportive chats about the death of parents and how you get through the dark times and move on
Bloody taxi queues
Carla getting mugged and bitten
Homophobic abuse and teeth getting knocked out
Too many black eyes to mention
Usual night out for the rats!
I've been involved in planning a surprise party and it's finally happened so I can now write freely about it - it's been so difficult keeping it quiet! Jane, Helen and I organised a surprise wedding party for Jess and Turtle. They thought that they only had a family meal to deal with on Saturday night but when they came through to the gallery at St Martin's they found they had a whole lot more! All the hard work was worth the look on their faces when they came in.
Edited highlight (and lowlights)
DJ Nonce throwing out some love classics
Drunken/drugged mates dancing to the love classics
Too much fizz
Seeing all those family and friends mixing and chatting
Jessie's sister in law coming to London even though she's about to give birth at any moment (and looking positively blooming of course!)
Proud parents
Wonderful, supportive chats about the death of parents and how you get through the dark times and move on
Bloody taxi queues
Carla getting mugged and bitten
Homophobic abuse and teeth getting knocked out
Too many black eyes to mention
Usual night out for the rats!
Friday, September 22, 2006
A charity single that rocks...?!*?
I've just heard the great new song for Strummerville - a recording of The Clash track 'Janie Jones' by Carl Barat, The Rakes, Mystery Jets, The Holloways, We Are Scientists, The Paddingtons, Larrikin Love, Cazals, Noisettes, Good Books, Lady Fuzz, Kooks, Jack Penate, Laura Marling, Maccabees, Lisa Moorish, Light Speed Champ (Test Icicles), Jamie T, Jeremy Warmsley and Guillemots. The single goes on sale on 30th October and the proceeds raise money for the Joe Strummer Foundation for New Music.
I've just heard the great new song for Strummerville - a recording of The Clash track 'Janie Jones' by Carl Barat, The Rakes, Mystery Jets, The Holloways, We Are Scientists, The Paddingtons, Larrikin Love, Cazals, Noisettes, Good Books, Lady Fuzz, Kooks, Jack Penate, Laura Marling, Maccabees, Lisa Moorish, Light Speed Champ (Test Icicles), Jamie T, Jeremy Warmsley and Guillemots. The single goes on sale on 30th October and the proceeds raise money for the Joe Strummer Foundation for New Music.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Richard Hammond....
I don't really have a passion for cars yet I watch Top Gear for the lovely Richard Hammond, I'm very sad to hear about his accident and fingers crossed that he'll pull through.
I don't really have a passion for cars yet I watch Top Gear for the lovely Richard Hammond, I'm very sad to hear about his accident and fingers crossed that he'll pull through.
It's been a busy, busy time...
11th September
Stayed up late, getting drunk with the ladies waiting and waiting for Jess and Matt's wedding broadcast - we found out (at midnight) that they hadn't paid for the broadcast! All that over excitement for nothing...
12th September
Get up horribly early and travel to St Ives. Wonderful views from the window - fields, white horses and seascapes.
Arrive at the B&B - amazing view over one of the many beaches that St Ives has.
Find the nearest ale pub and eat mussel's - yummy!
13th September
After various work phone calls/texts the boyf finally manages to get me to turn my phone off!
Tate visit - not really very inspiring but the cafe and views are nice.
Eat and drink a little too merrily...
14th September
3 jugs of Long Island Ice Tea have taken their toll on my body. Feel awful and sleep on the beach while boyf makes sand sharks. I wake with a painful strip on sunburn on the small of my back.
Eat at the St Andrew Bistro - I manage 2 starters and a pudding. The art on the walls is interesting but the food is too expensive for what it is...
15th September
Rather rough boat trip to seal island, boyf goes a lovely green colour. I'm rough too but I adore being on the sea!
Go to a pub for a Cornish night and a Cornish Seafood Platter. I manage to find the only gay in the village behind the bar, boyf is impressed. Cornish Platter is...good god...I'm lost for words...amazing...wonderful...yummy.
16th September
Swimming in the cold sea. I laugh out loud, full of joy and mouthfuls of seawater. Truly relaxed and happy for the first time in months.
Last min gift shopping - try not to eat too much of the Cornish cream fudge myself!
17th September
Journey home is nightmarish - 8 hours due to a fire near the tracks outside Reading. London transport hectic but still chilled from holiday and still feel happy and full of energy.
18th September
Chilled out day before I go back to work.
Get creative.
Have Hels around for coffee and then go back to the ladies for yummy fish pie.
Catch up with the newly weds, look at photos, hear stories from Burning Man and Las Vegas.
19th September
Back to work!
20th September
Get some nail extensions put on and immediately turn into a lady!
Wicked at the Apollo Victoria with Richie-roo. Catch up with him and his San Fran/Las Vegas visit. I can say without hesitation that Wicked is the most wonderful musical that I have ever seen - laugh out loud funny, great voices, great set, great costumes, great flying monkeys!
I'm keeping a picture of the view from our B&B on my desk so I can gaze at it during the day.
11th September
Stayed up late, getting drunk with the ladies waiting and waiting for Jess and Matt's wedding broadcast - we found out (at midnight) that they hadn't paid for the broadcast! All that over excitement for nothing...
12th September
Get up horribly early and travel to St Ives. Wonderful views from the window - fields, white horses and seascapes.
Arrive at the B&B - amazing view over one of the many beaches that St Ives has.
Find the nearest ale pub and eat mussel's - yummy!
13th September
After various work phone calls/texts the boyf finally manages to get me to turn my phone off!
Tate visit - not really very inspiring but the cafe and views are nice.
Eat and drink a little too merrily...
14th September
3 jugs of Long Island Ice Tea have taken their toll on my body. Feel awful and sleep on the beach while boyf makes sand sharks. I wake with a painful strip on sunburn on the small of my back.
Eat at the St Andrew Bistro - I manage 2 starters and a pudding. The art on the walls is interesting but the food is too expensive for what it is...
15th September
Rather rough boat trip to seal island, boyf goes a lovely green colour. I'm rough too but I adore being on the sea!
Go to a pub for a Cornish night and a Cornish Seafood Platter. I manage to find the only gay in the village behind the bar, boyf is impressed. Cornish Platter is...good god...I'm lost for words...amazing...wonderful...yummy.
16th September
Swimming in the cold sea. I laugh out loud, full of joy and mouthfuls of seawater. Truly relaxed and happy for the first time in months.
Last min gift shopping - try not to eat too much of the Cornish cream fudge myself!
17th September
Journey home is nightmarish - 8 hours due to a fire near the tracks outside Reading. London transport hectic but still chilled from holiday and still feel happy and full of energy.
18th September
Chilled out day before I go back to work.
Get creative.
Have Hels around for coffee and then go back to the ladies for yummy fish pie.
Catch up with the newly weds, look at photos, hear stories from Burning Man and Las Vegas.
19th September
Back to work!
20th September
Get some nail extensions put on and immediately turn into a lady!
Wicked at the Apollo Victoria with Richie-roo. Catch up with him and his San Fran/Las Vegas visit. I can say without hesitation that Wicked is the most wonderful musical that I have ever seen - laugh out loud funny, great voices, great set, great costumes, great flying monkeys!
I'm keeping a picture of the view from our B&B on my desk so I can gaze at it during the day.
Monday, September 11, 2006
6 Music Radio Replay Heaven and Hell
Hell:
Trevor Lock (from Russell Brand's Sunday show) not being on last Sunday's show due to alleged rape charges - the theme of Russell's show 'innocence'.
Heaven:
CUD's Purple Love Balloon being played by Andrew Collins. I loved CUD for the 10 seconds they were famous, the track span me straight back to 1992! Must dig the albums out when I get back home...
In my Purple Love Balloon,
I want to thumb a ride,
In my Purple Love Balloon,
Come on baby, let's get high,
In my Purple Love Balloon
I want to take a ride
In my Purple Love Balloon
I want to make you cry
In my Purple Love Balloon"
Hell:
Trevor Lock (from Russell Brand's Sunday show) not being on last Sunday's show due to alleged rape charges - the theme of Russell's show 'innocence'.
Heaven:
CUD's Purple Love Balloon being played by Andrew Collins. I loved CUD for the 10 seconds they were famous, the track span me straight back to 1992! Must dig the albums out when I get back home...
"The first time that I saw you,
You were running scared,
You assured me,
Your clothes were making chase,
Your mouth made shapes before me,
The second time you touched me,
Your hands sent ripples through me,
My shirt was made of paisley
It's bright so I can find me.
You're one in a million, take me home,
Vague hazards roar, vague hazards moan,
You're one in a million,
And I will see you soon,
I want to take you high in my...
Purple Love Balloon.
The second time you touched me,
Your hands sent ripples through me,
My shirt was made of paisley
It's bright so I can find me.
The third time that you loved me,
A dragon was inside me,
Assured that you were of your soul
I found the essence of your whole.
You're one in a million, take me home,
Vague dragons roar, vague dragons moan,
You're one in a million,
And I will see you soon,
I want to take you high in my...
Purple Love Balloon.
In my Purple Love Balloon,
I want to thumb a ride,
In my Purple Love Balloon,
Come on baby, let's get high,
In my Purple Love Balloon
I want to take a ride
In my Purple Love Balloon
I want to make you cry
In my Purple Love Balloon"
Friday, September 08, 2006
There are advantages to your boyf being bored at work - he finds answers to all those little annoy ing questions/statements that I bombard him with at bedtime...
Where does the term straw poll come from?
Octopuses and how they poison people
He also sent me this picture of a cute kitten stating "Love you too and here is a yucky picture to prove it! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx"
That boy rocks!
Where does the term straw poll come from?
Octopuses and how they poison people
He also sent me this picture of a cute kitten stating "Love you too and here is a yucky picture to prove it! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx"
That boy rocks!
Stuff from the last few days
The other day, I boarded the East London line train to be greeted by the voice of my favourite driver who always says "[insert station name], if you are ending your journey here, whoever you are, whatever the weather have a fantastic day" - he always cheers me up...
I've been pretty busy at work developing a risk assessment and a fire emergency plan - it's been quite enjoyable and today I got into work and the boss had but a post it note on the work with 'Excellent work!' and a girly pink star. You often feel like you're too old for that sort of thing but I really appreciated it!
On the personal front, various people have been reappearing into my life. Some have been invited but others have appeared of their own accord. I'm looking forward to catching up with them all.
Next week:
I'm planning to watch Jessie and Turtle get married in Vegas via Carla's laptop. Hurrah!
I'm going on holiday with boy/f in St Ives. Hurrah!
The other day, I boarded the East London line train to be greeted by the voice of my favourite driver who always says "[insert station name], if you are ending your journey here, whoever you are, whatever the weather have a fantastic day" - he always cheers me up...
I've been pretty busy at work developing a risk assessment and a fire emergency plan - it's been quite enjoyable and today I got into work and the boss had but a post it note on the work with 'Excellent work!' and a girly pink star. You often feel like you're too old for that sort of thing but I really appreciated it!
On the personal front, various people have been reappearing into my life. Some have been invited but others have appeared of their own accord. I'm looking forward to catching up with them all.
Next week:
I'm planning to watch Jessie and Turtle get married in Vegas via Carla's laptop. Hurrah!
I'm going on holiday with boy/f in St Ives. Hurrah!
Monday, September 04, 2006
Friday, September 01, 2006
Nicky Wire
I can't even begin to put into words how much this man means to me - he has influenced all that I am, fed into my dreams, my cultural and symbolic understanding of the world, I classify and communicate my experiences via the Manic Street Preachers. To say I am "a fan" is an understatement.
To say he doesn't have flaws would be incorrect but negatively and positively he has influenced me, this man (and the rest of the band) guided me through from my childhood into my now adulthood; I accepted and used his words, images and influences to influence my own life. He didn't know me so it was with a non-judgemental eye I was guided.
“It’s scary to watch someone you love go into the centre of himself and confront his fears; fear of failure, fear of death, fear of going insane. You have to fail a little, die a little, go insane a little to come out the other side” Break My Heart Slowly, Nicky Wire
I can't even begin to put into words how much this man means to me - he has influenced all that I am, fed into my dreams, my cultural and symbolic understanding of the world, I classify and communicate my experiences via the Manic Street Preachers. To say I am "a fan" is an understatement.
To say he doesn't have flaws would be incorrect but negatively and positively he has influenced me, this man (and the rest of the band) guided me through from my childhood into my now adulthood; I accepted and used his words, images and influences to influence my own life. He didn't know me so it was with a non-judgemental eye I was guided.
“It’s scary to watch someone you love go into the centre of himself and confront his fears; fear of failure, fear of death, fear of going insane. You have to fail a little, die a little, go insane a little to come out the other side” Break My Heart Slowly, Nicky Wire
Thursday, August 31, 2006
I have signed an online petition: Petition against the redevelopment of The Intrepid Fox pub.
You may wish to support this cause by clicking on the link below and following the instructions.
Me, I want to save The Fox
I've spent many a happy hour in there getting horribly drunk with the goths and metal kids and avoiding going in the black toilets - what joy!
You may wish to support this cause by clicking on the link below and following the instructions.
Me, I want to save The Fox
I've spent many a happy hour in there getting horribly drunk with the goths and metal kids and avoiding going in the black toilets - what joy!
Taken from today's Metro
"Pisces - Taking some action on a long-term plan, even if it’s only a teeny tiny step, somehow makes you feel better. It makes you feel like you’re getting somewhere. Like your life is not stuck in a swamp of confusion and frustration. Always helps."
Swamp of confusion and frustration - sums up the last few weeks! Better take some action...
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Highlight from bank holiday weekend:
Joe's grandma revealing that just after the war when she was in Winchester one of the boys in the barracks asked her to get Lady Chatterly's Lover out of the library. The book went around the whole barracks before it got back to her and she didn't have time to read it before giving it back to the library!
Joe's grandma revealing that just after the war when she was in Winchester one of the boys in the barracks asked her to get Lady Chatterly's Lover out of the library. The book went around the whole barracks before it got back to her and she didn't have time to read it before giving it back to the library!
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Quote of the Day
"But saints are often mistaken for lunatics. But not as often as lunatics are correctly identified as lunatics." Richard Herring
Check out his webblog here, I have become addicited to his daily updates of normality and oddness.
"But saints are often mistaken for lunatics. But not as often as lunatics are correctly identified as lunatics." Richard Herring
Check out his webblog here, I have become addicited to his daily updates of normality and oddness.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Good and Bad Technology (it's a bit like the Terminator view of the future...the robots have taken over! Oh no, it's ok we can use the technology to build robots for good too)
A memory stick has ruined my life and has meant that my to do list is slowly building up behind the work I now have to redo...my faith in technology is at an all time low. Apart from last night when I made this wonderful spreadsheet that can record the number of entries and has colour coding and flashing lights and bells on! Hurrah, my faith in technology restored!
A memory stick has ruined my life and has meant that my to do list is slowly building up behind the work I now have to redo...my faith in technology is at an all time low. Apart from last night when I made this wonderful spreadsheet that can record the number of entries and has colour coding and flashing lights and bells on! Hurrah, my faith in technology restored!
Spent the weekend ill, wilting with weakness and had to take to my mother's bed to recover. Last train from Hastings cancelled on Sunday evening so had to travel early on Monday. Still ill but still had to be convinced that I should take the day off. Still not feeling great but the 'to do list' was pulsing violently on my desk and had to tend to it...
Still bloody raining. Can't wait for our holiday in St. Ives in September...a whole week to relax!
Still bloody raining. Can't wait for our holiday in St. Ives in September...a whole week to relax!
Little bit of time wasting at lunch time...
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Friday, August 18, 2006
The new Morrissey email out has a picture of him licking an ice cream...gasp at those blue eyes, that quiff...bloody hell what a nice addition to my day full of building bitching, transcription checking and depressing rain.
*Boo does a little shaky booty dance of pure happiness*
How your mood can change!
*Boo does a little shaky booty dance of pure happiness*
How your mood can change!
Rubbish People
Sometimes your gut instinct is correct. I mean, if I responded in the way I wanted to the respond to the selfish, brattish behaviour surrounding me the shit would hit the fan so let's just leave it...I've reached my limit of understanding some people's behaviour and I can't be bothered to make the effort anymore. It's yet another little thing but boy do the little things build up to a bloody huge mountain that you can't climb over.
Gosh, my patience is at an all time low.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
After coming home the other night after a creative coaching session (more of which later) I had a very interesting conversation with boyf. He was saying that he feels like what he really needs is a "soul wank" to help clear himself and his blocks. The disturbing thing is that I know precisely what he means...
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
A bit of time wasting before work starts!
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Monday, August 14, 2006
Oddities from the damn busy weekend of working on the Mela:
- Finding that all 3 ladies in the office had bought Red magazine for the free make up cases and utilized them as pencil and 'important things for the site office' bag. Very worrying.
- Slipping into overusing of spaz voices when getting into the stuck in the site office for over 10 hours moment.
- Being challenged by drunk kids from the catering tent demanding to know if I was related to their art teacher called Anna...
- striking up relationships with people on radio who you actually never meet in person.
- Running away from the free after show drinks in hospitality to curl up in the hotel bar and drink rose.
- Still managing to steal a wine glass from the hotel although I wasn't even that drunk.
- Choreographers with crushes on Bollywood pop stars are very amusing (also you must never tell a mouthy Liverpudlian that you fancy someone, they'll only go and tell them and drag you over - this is a lesson I have learnt at the very hands of our very own mouthy Liver Bird (every house needs one, I tell you!))
Friday, August 11, 2006
A great tool for deciding where to travel to...
What Places In The World Match Your Personality?
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
My mother teaches English to lots of people. Recently she's been working with Chinese head teachers. She gave them my blog to read through to explore informal patterns of writing, slang and phrases...these are the words/phrases that they found interesting and/or didn't quite understand with my mums explanation notes added in brackets. Makes for a highlighted version of my blog...I like it a lot. Made me laugh out loud!
Exploring the language of a blog
(Here are some of your findings I have only included words and phrases, which I think you will find useful. I have omitted those idiosyncratic to her.)
Informal English (including short forms)
v. drunk (v=very)
pj’s (pyjamas)
bday (birthday)
gonna (going to)
wanna (want to)
20x (20 times)
baby bro (younger brother)
Xmas (Christmas)
x (kiss)
I’m mega busy (mega =very)
y’know (you know)
Ex (past boy/girlfriend)
yuck (horrible)
TGI Friday (Thank God it’s Friday)
hurrah (good news)
Like crazy (lots/very much)
grotty (not nice)
G’day (Good day –Australian influence)
ciggy (cigarette)
Swear words
Careful – only use very informally – any may offend people!!
IMPOLITE shit, crap, bloody, bitches, damn, God, twit
Foreign words
Tres chic (French for very fashionable – also uses tres with English adjectives)
Per se (Latin for as such)
Tequila (Spanish – strong spirit drink)
Unazukin (Japanese doll)
Metaphor or simile
To juggle (to manage lots of things at the same time)
Social butterfly
Spidering the web (www)
Rock star like ego
We ran like feral wolf children
Looking like a bum
Feel like shit
Look like a plague victim
My throat becoming razor blades
Floods of tears
How on earth can I get out of this hole?
Worrying like as rocking chair
Sending shivers down my spine
They are rocking my world (disturbing my reality)
Full of beans dance routines
Idioms or other unusual phrases and words or phrases you do not understand:
lb (pound – weight before metric introduced)
witty (funny with words)
Pilled up (on drugs – usually ecstasy)
Flatmate (like room mate or house mate)
Clamber (climb over)
VAT (value added tax on shopping)
Tesco (large supermarket – brand name)
Ecstasy (drug which gives one energy for dancing and makes one happy for a while)
E’s (short form of above)
Porno (short for pornography)
Backpacker (traveller + rucksack)
Tepee (native American tent)
A learning curve (difficult learning experience)
OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder – a medical problem, when actions are repeated needlessly)
Temper tantrums (fits of angry)
Goodies (sweets or treats)
Side effects (effects from medicine not desired)
Bump into people (meet them unexpectedly)
Goth ( sub culture, dressing in black and into death, loud music and shocking the rest of us!)
Geek (computer mad intelligent guy –usually wears glasses!)
Quality time (giving someone your full attention)
To flirt (chat to someone you fancy, to get them interested – or pretend to!)
With a short fuse (likely to lose temper fast)
Voyeuristic (like looking at others –usually sexually)
Wee hours (late – 1,2,3 am)
Pimp (man who sends women out as prostitutes)
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Y'know the trouble with listening to radio shows that hardly anyone else seems to listen too? No one 'gets' your jokes anymore - PIIIINNNNCCCCHHH MY SKKKKIIIINNNN!
Friday, August 04, 2006
Nabbed from Sgt Pepper
yep, yep, yep - bloody hell, a mememe that is correct!
| You Are Lightning |
 Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing |
yep, yep, yep - bloody hell, a mememe that is correct!
A little 3 mins waste of my lunch break:
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Monday, July 31, 2006
Some non-work things to look forward to over the next busy month:
- Jan-jan's (the mother creature) bday weekend
- The Jeremy Deller exhibition at the De La Warr Pavillion
- Armando Iannucci's new tv show Time Trumpet
- A floatation centre visit (still debating with my self about the colonic irrigation visit!)
- Avenue Q
- A free personal creative coaching session
Saturday was spent in Shoeburyness - didn't spend long there but it was a lovely train journey there and back along the Essex coast. I left my swimming costume at work with under used gym kit, so couldn't jump into the sea but enjoyed watching kids jumping off rusting framework and the windsurfers. I did fulfill some seaside requirements and received an odd sunburn on leg due to placement of shells and stones and ate fish and chips and ice cream.
I do love a day trip.
Yesterday was spent working in the production office on a Sikh festival out in Hounslow, it went well I think...certainly a learning curve of a day!
A busy week ahead...no, a busy couple of weeks...actually a busy month. Once August is over I'll have a little time to breathe until it starts again with meetings and arranging fireworks.
I do love a day trip.
Yesterday was spent working in the production office on a Sikh festival out in Hounslow, it went well I think...certainly a learning curve of a day!
A busy week ahead...no, a busy couple of weeks...actually a busy month. Once August is over I'll have a little time to breathe until it starts again with meetings and arranging fireworks.
Monday, July 24, 2006
Lovebox - we braved the on/off rain to see strippers, insect circus museums, Coldcut - who rocked as always but we had to evacuate from the tent midway as it had become a roasting hot sauna, various DJ's (I have no idea who!), fine burgers, hugs from random pill'd up strangers, bumping into boyfs New Zealander relatives, teepee tents (unfortunately occupied by Secret Sundaze - good music but why oh why do all the fashionable wankers end up there?)
Sunday was spent chilling out, playing with the new pocket PC (oooohhhhhing and arrrhhhing at every new thing it does!), walking in Tower Hamlets Cemetery Park and generally being dismayed at my current lack of available friends to play with...
I finish working most weekends by September by which time most of them will be away getting married, moving, planning their around the world trips...the last 6/7 months have been strange. I moved out from living with my 3 best mates, then my dad died and it's been difficult to reconnect with those and other friends. Not to say that they weren't amazing and supportive but that I didn't and couldn't have the same priorities as them while I was 'healing myself'. I assumed that once I was 'better', I would go back to being the same 'me' but the whole process has changed 'me' dramatically - perhaps not on the outside but certainly on the inside. I suppose it's all part of the process of growing up (and as a certain person in my life keeps saying "Boudicca, you are almost 30").
Note to self: must plan well in advance more outings and visits with friends.
Friday, July 21, 2006
In the last 24hrs I have:
Taken an hour to travel from Paddington to Marble Arch (damn TFL and emergency tube closures)
Moved bedding to front room with its large open windows to try and escape the heat (no such luck)
Been locked out my office for 2hrs (cue sunburnt cleavage)
London isn't made for weather this hot; all are rude and impatient including me...
This evening will be spent under a cold shower and tomorrow will be spent getting horribly drunk at Lovebox
Taken an hour to travel from Paddington to Marble Arch (damn TFL and emergency tube closures)
Bought a HP iPAQ rx 1950 series (Wi-fi, one of the joys of the modern age!)
Laid in bed and been bathed with ice cubes by a drunk boyfMoved bedding to front room with its large open windows to try and escape the heat (no such luck)
Been locked out my office for 2hrs (cue sunburnt cleavage)
London isn't made for weather this hot; all are rude and impatient including me...
This evening will be spent under a cold shower and tomorrow will be spent getting horribly drunk at Lovebox
Friday, July 14, 2006
I've just bought an unazukin and I've become so obsessed with her that I've:
- taken to reading through my work to do list and seeing what she says I should do and shouldn't do...
- put her by my speakers to find out what radio station I should be listening to (she likes 6 Music by the way)
- allowed her to control my food intake all day - she says a diet of biscuits and I follow like a fool...
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Yesterday evening I went to see Fuerzabruta at the Roundhouse (after pre-theatre catch up, drinkies and snacks with the Fairy Uncle - thank you!). Umm, well I went expecting a spectacle and that's what I got but for all the exciting, beautiful, striking images within the show; I was still left slightly disappointed by it. The more I think about it the more parts of it I felt didn't work. I wanted more...I'd liken it to a ghost train. Ghost trains are exciting and funny while you're in there but the minute you come out nothing remains with you apart from "oooh, I liked that bit when the cobweb fell on my face"...and another thing, using African chats within upbeat (did I really just say upbeat???) ravey music doesn't work. On anything. Especially women in their pants throwing themselves through water above the audiences’ heads.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Yet another amazing gig from James Dean Bradfield at ULU last night. Beautiful,
Boyf got chatting to David Quantick (only of course after I'd said don't talk to David Quantick!) . He bought us pints and we chatted about the Manics and their solo careers. The consensus was "thoroughly
Quote of the night:
"I'd turn up to see the Manic Street Preachers shit" David Quantick
Nicky Wire - pink suited, middle-aged parent teachers evening ranter, poet, shambollix
James Dean Bradfield - beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, when someone uses a guitar to take you to another place, it literally leaves me breathless...also having a parent that has recently died, Ocean Spray meant more to me than anything last night - thank you (I try hard to refrain from bursting into Thank you for the music by ABBA!)
Sean Moore - what's the next step? Industrial hardcore? Freeform jazz? Electro soundscape? Come Mooro pull it out the bag boy!
Boyf got chatting to David Quantick (only of course after I'd said don't talk to David Quantick!) . He bought us pints and we chatted about the Manics and their solo careers. The consensus was "thoroughly
Quote of the night:
"I'd turn up to see the Manic Street Preachers shit" David Quantick
Nicky Wire - pink suited, middle-aged parent teachers evening ranter, poet, shambollix
James Dean Bradfield - beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, when someone uses a guitar to take you to another place, it literally leaves me breathless...also having a parent that has recently died, Ocean Spray meant more to me than anything last night - thank you (I try hard to refrain from bursting into Thank you for the music by ABBA!)
Sean Moore - what's the next step? Industrial hardcore? Freeform jazz? Electro soundscape? Come Mooro pull it out the bag boy!
Monday, July 10, 2006
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